I fail dismally at not eating. I have to get into a fast again. I have all this time, that I know won't be interrupted by friends or family or forced food. I can't waste it eating.
I wonder how I could get prescription weight loss drugs. They supposedly really zap your appetite. I'd pretty much do anything at this point. I can't stand to look like this. I don't understand how I can want something this badly and keep fucking it up.
Well. I just spend way too much money on shoes I just couldn't possibly resist. I made a deal with myself: it's food or the shoes.
This better work. But I've almost made it through this night. I can fast until Thanksgiving if I just get started.
<3 Hop on board, skinny minnies!