I fail dismally at not eating. I have to get into a fast again. I have all this time, that I know won't be interrupted by friends or family or forced food. I can't waste it eating.
I wonder how I could get prescription weight loss drugs. They supposedly really zap your appetite. I'd pretty much do anything at this point. I can't stand to look like this. I don't understand how I can want something this badly and keep fucking it up.
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Well. I just spend way too much money on shoes I just couldn't possibly resist. I made a deal with myself: it's food or the shoes.
This better work. But I've almost made it through this night. I can fast until Thanksgiving if I just get started.
<3 Hop on board, skinny minnies!
i know exactly what you mean. :/ sorry no i dont know how to get any prescription weight loss pills but there are some amazing ones called phenphedrine bt they are illegal where i am. still legal in the usa though
ReplyDeleteYou're lucky, I wish I could get away from my extremely nosy parents :(. And don't worry too much, it happens to the best of us. I don't know about drugs but what really works for me is good old fashioned fasting, excercise, water, LOTS of green tea, and tons of fashion mags :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there, lovely.
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Ah Eva, you are back :)
ReplyDelete(I have been awol too)
You are a fasting wonder <3
I need to get this strength back...
And I'd say definately do it without the pills - I used to take a multitude of the things on an empty stomach... it almost always made me feel so sick I had to eat...
On board again x x x