I had originally planned to fast through Friday, the 6th. But my boyfriend and I have a dinner date on Saturday. I've been avoiding him so much lately, he's even commented on how I seem distant. I think my boyfriend is even more important to me than starving, so I can't get out of this. We're having sushi, so I think it will be a pretty good first meal, since I can order a roll that is very light and hopefully won't upset my stomach. But I want to take Friday to try to prepare my body for food. It will have actually been 32 days on Friday since I had that three day water fast right before I started on juice.
They sell these smoothie drinks in the campus store that I might try on Thursday. Give my stomach some actual fiber to digest. Then on Friday I'll start with a tiny bit of applesauce first thing, that should be pretty easy and maybe an orange or something for dinner. I just really really don't want to make myself sick. I've been feeling sick for way too long. After this weekend I think I'll do like a 500 calorie a day limit. I want my body to get out of starvation mode before my Valentine's Day dinner because I know that's going to be sooo many calories and fat. Maybe I should even go higher than 500? I don't really know.
I'm going to try to catch up on everyone's blogs while I have some free time. I moved in with a friend of mine who lives on campus, so a secret move in. It's made it really hard to post on here. I have to use her computer for everything and I just can't risk anyone discovering this. I will just try to do the best I can.
I love all you gals. Even when I can't post, I'm still thinking about everyone and just knowing you're here is such a huge support for me. You rock!