Weekends suck. My mother is home on weekends. And she also decided to take today off. Ugh! I always kind of try to spend as little time with my mom as possible, just because we start to not get along too well. But now that I'm fasting I have to do it so she doesn't realize I'm not eating. It isn't that easy to always be making myself scarce.
I'm getting pretty good at avoiding food. It's sort of like a fun game now. Our garbage disposal sure gets a lot of use. I don't like throwing away food, but now I'm pretty much over it. Anything to avoid seeing it on my hips. Plus, binging and purging is just like throwing it away. I've also found that if I make something and then put the "leftovers" in the fridge, my mother can't tell that I didn't actually eat any of it. It also gives me a chance to make healthy stuff for her.
I'm thinking about carrying a ziploc bag in my purse or my pocket wherever I go. That way I can "eat" something by sneaking it into the bag. If anyone else has any good suggestions for ways to pretend to eat, please let me know. I feel like I could fast all summer and be happy. I can only imagine what my boyfriend would think. I want him to really notice that I've lost weight while I've been gone.
Anywho, love ya girlies. Keep starving!