I am so relieved to be at this point, day four is usually a sort of line for me. Once I get here, I can go as long as I need to. I don't know how long I'm going to be able to go, since I'm home and there are constant family events which always revolve around some huge, disgusting meal.
Tonight I have two parties to go to, but it will be easy to avoid the food ("I'm going to be having dinner at the next party/ I ate so much at that first party, I'm just stuffed!"). Unfortunately Father's day is on Sunday and I'm supposed to go to this big family dinner at my grandparent's. I'm having trouble coming up with a way to get out of it. It is kind of a big deal to that side of the family. I need to find an excuse that would allow me to show up after they've eaten or something. Maybe I can play the upset stomach card.
Yesterday was a bit of a rough day. I had a pretty sizable chew and spit binge. It's certainly better than a real binge, though I'd much rather control myself better than that. Then I was feeding the horses (my grandparents have a farm and horses) and I got stepped on. My foot looks pretty gruesome and hurts like crazy. I got so light headed after it happened, I was afraid I might pass out right there still surrounded by horses. Dangerous place for that sort of thing. I made it out safely and drank some apple juice to get my head to stop spinning. I guess that counts as breaking my water fast, but I think I had a good excuse.
I'm only five pounds away from my lowest ever weight. I was bracing myself for much higher numbers on the scale since I've been eating everything in sight for so long. My hair has started falling out. I'm not yet underweight, so I think this is from fasting so much. Price to pay, I suppose. Luckily my hair is thick with quite a few strands to spare. I wonder how long until it becomes noticeable.
Thanks again for all the welcomes. It really feels good to be back and I can already tell how much I needed to be back. <3s to everyone! I'm off to make the commenting rounds.