I'm posting from my uncle's house, so I must make this quick. I'm mid way through my epic drive back to the mountains and back to school and hopefully back to total control. I'm equipped with beautiful new red hair (dyed from my natural blonde) and fabulous new shoes. Perfect motivators.
I'm going on a trip with my boyfriend on Friday and not sure when I'll be able to post again. I am sure that I'll be enormous when I come back. Bleh. I'm trying not to stress out too much about it. Just need to enjoy the vacation and not ruin it with anxiety about food. It's horrible that I can't wait for our romantic trip to be over so I can start starving myself again. I sometimes do wish that my eating disorder would allow me to enjoy some aspects of my life a bit more. Oh well. Thin thin thin.
I love you girls and am thinking about y'all. Stay strong and gorgeous. Gotta go before I get caught. <3
I know what you mean, sometimes you just wish you could just enjoy stuff instead of worring. but hey. I know you'll have a great time on your trip, I had red hair once :)
ReplyDeletegood luck!
I was just about to comment on your last post and ask where my Eva is!
ReplyDeleteI wish an eating disorder could be flipped on and off, off when you want to have fun and on when you need it. Lets face it, most of us wouldn't be able to survive without our disorder.
ReplyDeleteTry to have fun on your trip!
Stay strong.
Good luck on your trip! Try not to worry too much.
ReplyDeleteHave fun on your trip, try to relax!! No stressing! Don't worry-Be happy! Try and keep your mind off of food.
ReplyDelete4 leaf clovers over to ya!
XO
Ooh, red hair? I wish I had the bravery to do that! Haha. Or a mother who wouldn't freak if I did =p
ReplyDeleteYeah, I know the fear of getting huge when you're with someone else on a trip. Unfortunately, it used to always turn out that way for me too. I think I have more willpower now, though. I'm sure you do too, and you'll be fine =]
Hey! I dont have a blog or anything but I was reading yours and your such an inspiring person, seriously. I've tried fasting before but I always break and now I think I can do it. I just want someone to fast with so I'll have more of a motivation to not eat.
ReplyDeleteif you want, email me at stephanie.ginn@gmail.com
Hi Eva! I really enjoy reading your blog, and I have just written my own post on my brand new blog! I hope you can head over and check it out; I would be so happy!
ReplyDeleteWow. Just, wow. I've read the first few entries on your blog and I l-o-v-e them. x3
ReplyDeleteI get what you mean about it getting in the way of having fun. I haven't seen any friends in about three weeks, though that's mainly due to my mum keeping me under 24/7 supervision. -.-;
Keep going, sweet. :3
I MISS YOU! I'm sorry I haven't been reading and commenting in forever :( I'm terrible. But you're in my thoughts. All my affection!!
ReplyDeletestay strong <3
ReplyDeleteim super glad i found your blog :)