Saturday, April 11, 2009

Thirty Three

My roommate is gone for the weekend! I can't even say how thrilled I am. I'm a horrible person, but I am so so sick of her. Plus I get the time to work, already made sixty bucks today. And I don't have to worry about hiding my fast, when she gets back on Monday, I'll be back to eating.

I got Thin in the mail and watched it today. It was a very very powerful movie. I loved it. I know it isn't supposed to be, but it's inspiring even through the tragedy of it. I cried numerous times while watching and I feel even more inspired to do the eating thing right. Definitely recommend it to everyone.

Yesterday I had my first little bit of orange juice. It was more like slight orange flavored water, but it was a start. Today I've been drinking half water half juice. It is so delicious! It tastes very intense to my deprived tastes buds. It's a bit hard though to know that I'm giving up the fast soon though. I've only been able to drink about a fourth of my glass of juice so far. I'd much rather just keep starving.

Savory! I'm totally moving in with you! I can't imagine a better living situation. We wouldn't have to worry about roommates telling us to eat or gross food hanging around. We could just keep like celery in the fridge and we'd be so skinny together. I'm going to pack my stuff up right away! In fact, all of us should move in together and become an amazing Ana commune. It'd be so awesome.

Dancing in the shadows, you are so right about the sugar free applesauce and it's especially good after a fast because flavors can be a lot stronger, even cinnamon. But I've heard stuff about cinnamon being good for a metabolism boost, not sure if that's actually true or scientifically backed. Can't hurt though!

I really really want to weigh myself, but I'm not going to my boyfriend's house this weekend. I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I absolutely need to see the numbers. Maybe it will be better though. When I weigh next week I won't have to see if I've put on weight. Failures often lead to more failures with me.

Okay okay. That's enough for today. I'm off to go blog reading now! <3!


  1. I love having the house to myself aswell ~ you can just eat what you want when you want without having to think about what other ppl are thinking.

    I'm with you =) we should all move in together. haha.

    Seriously though, I think it would be pretty motivating to live with someone else who also has an ed.

  2. I wish I had an enlightened roommate to keep me motivated... I end up never getting anything done because no one is here to judge me either way.


    ha ha

  3. You're so right! All us ana girls living together would be amazing...

    You're doing fantastic Eva. Stay strong. When you start eating again, whatever you do DON'T BINGE. Seriously. Just don't. Don't undo all of your hard work. Because you have done so so well.

    Lots of love xxxx

  4. Ana commune! That would be like, so awesome.

  5. Ugh we should all live together. God, what fun the media would have with that! haha.

    To answer your question, my thesis is on gender and consumerism in the 1950s. It's really interesting when I get motivated to be interested in it :)

    All the best!!